I can list 50 reasons why/excuses, but will spare you. THIS is what I want to get out of this situation: When the next crisis happens (and it will– it’s called life!), WHAT can I do differently? I was so strong that first night but then as more stress was added I just DID NOT want to feel anymore.
I am SO happy with our life. I love the life that we’ve built. We have terrific kids and I couldn’t ask for a more supportive spouse. This is the majorly confusing part for me. This one thing, this one little thing is the only thing that is making me unhappy. I should have control over it, but it seems to have complete control over me.