Self Love is a Superpower

Day #808 I am this many years old (44) when I found out that self love is a superpower. In fact, it may be the most effective force within us. And it goes both ways. I read something yesterday that resonated in a big way. When we don’t deal with our inner trauma, we runContinue reading “Self Love is a Superpower”

Day #774 My Ego is Not My Amigo

Today is Sunday, May 9th 2021, Mother’s Day. The forecast is chilly and rainy, which is kind of sad, but is at least a good excuse to stay inside and get cozy with my blanket and a book.  It is also my seven hundred and seventy fourth day without alcohol- just over two years. IContinue reading “Day #774 My Ego is Not My Amigo”

Two Years, No Drinks

Two years ago was one of the most shameful days of my life. I won’t go into details, and they aren’t awful, as I was a ‘high bottom’ drunk. I’ve never had a DUI or anything like that. But I knew that I had to stop drinking once and for all. In these two years,Continue reading “Two Years, No Drinks”

My Greatest Teacher

For the first time in 7 years, I felt joy when I saw the date, February 13th. It was my late mom’s birthday. She died suddenly in 2014. Her birthday, just like her deathday, can be a sad and overwhelming time. I didn’t allow myself to feel guilty, for feeling joy, on this day, althoughContinue reading “My Greatest Teacher”

Day 676 – What’s in Your Garden?

“We don’t see things the way they are. We see things the way We are.” -Talmud I used to see the world through a different set of eyes, because of the way I was. I’ve changed, and so has the landscape I look at everyday. But it’s not the landscape that has changed. I usedContinue reading “Day 676 – What’s in Your Garden?”

Always Watching

My oldest kiddo is a huge Tetris fan. When one of the most well known champs passed away recently, he was in shock. He told me about a headline he saw, saying Jonas Neubauer has died, which he thought was a joke. Then he told me about his wife’s Twitter statement, confirming the awful news.Continue reading “Always Watching”

Day 653

I think of the years I spent, writing on here, about day 1 after day 1 after day 1. At times I felt like a sham, “Hi 👋🏻, me again, I F***ed up yet again.” Feeling like a sober imposter.

Christmas 2020

Christmas 2020 will always bring me cherished memories. It will be remembered as an anomaly, and not because of the pandemic. This is the year we left stress, negativity and drama behind. And it was amazing. The last two trips to Florida were in January and February and the weather was awful both times, soContinue reading “Christmas 2020”

Running

Everything is bothering me today, this week, this month, actually. I’m usually pretty upbeat & grateful, but my ego has my head exhausted. Maybe it’s being stuck in a dirty house with so many men. There is often tension between my hubby and my teenage nephew, who isn’t used to discipline and quite frankly, ITContinue reading “Running”

Day Counters

Day 625 The day counter became my nemesis in early recovery. I’ve reset that sucker too many times to count. I’ve tried abstaining without keeping track of days, because for awhile, I was too obsessed with the counter. During the first year, I played around with not using it at all. Eventually, I found itContinue reading “Day Counters”