This Too Shall Pass

This too shall pass.  I feel like I’ve been saying this for weeks. My intention was to write a positive post tonight.  After all, it’s Mother’s Day tomorrow and my boys and I are going to the Sasha Farm Sanctuary to learn about the cruelty of factory farms, to cuddle some farm animals and to […]

Here Comes the Sun

Today is Saturday and by all measures, I should be feeling so happy. The sun is FINALLY shining. I’m finally starting to shed the 10 pounds that I put on since the new year. I woke up early to make it to my favorite specialty stores before they got busy.  I came home, put away […]

Stuck in this Relapse

This is what I wrote shortly after my last relapse 7/28/18: The good news is that after drinking several days this past week, I am so incredibly excited to get back on track.  There is so much misery to active addiction– physically, mentally, spiritually.  I miss the AF me!  I cannot wait to get back […]

Kicking Negativity to the Curb

Folks in recovery talk about the healing of the mind, body and spirit and how each is essential to overcome addiction and to live a happy life.  I couldn’t agree more and usually do conscious and unconscious routines and rituals that support each of these areas.  I realized that my mind, body and spirit were all in a state of negativity and distress– all three of them, and all at once.

Two Against One

For the longest time, I have been fighting this alone.   Talking to people at meetings is great, but they aren’t there when I’m at home and a mental battle is going on in my head.  It’s like I have two voices– me and then Betsy, my inner alcoholic voice.  For the first time ever, I felt like it was US against Betsy– two against one.  It was an uplifting and empowering realization.