Day 490 and ODAAT

As I predicted, my inner alcoholic voice, Betsy (DeVos), has been doing pushups while I’ve been working my soul off and has returned to torture my thoughts.  She’s not too bad yet, but this is how it starts.  She sees a vulnerability and jumps on it. My best friend is getting married in September andContinue reading “Day 490 and ODAAT”

Turn off the Chaos

It’s hard to go about this summer in a normal way when so much commotion is going on in the outside world. I was in a bad place mentally about a week ago and couldn’t stop thinking gloom and doom thoughts about the future, especially going back to work in the fall. This summer hasContinue reading “Turn off the Chaos”

Day 471 and Lessons of 2020

This has been the strangest summer ever, which isn’t surprising considering how weird and messed up 2020 has been.  I went to a psychic in November who gave me a heads up about 2020 being filled with lessons for me.  I was panicked, and would have felt better if I knew that 2020 would beContinue reading “Day 471 and Lessons of 2020”

Sadness

Today it feels like day 300 of quarantine.  It feels like a million years since we’ve been in school, yet it seems like yesterday.  Today I am filled with sadness, oddly accompanied by higher vibes than a sad day would normally bring me.  I don’t know why this is, perhaps I am accepting the changesContinue reading “Sadness”

The Opportunistic Alcoholic Voice

Thursday April 2 was a great day for the most part.  This was the day (from my previous post) that I had a spiritual walk and a blissful day. I was cleaning up the kitchen with my nephew and instructed him to clean the stove.  I was seasoning an iron pan and had just turnedContinue reading “The Opportunistic Alcoholic Voice”

Be the Light

4/5/20 This past week has been a powerful week for me, personally.  At the beginning, I was just climbing out of the funk I was in for two weeks after life changed completely.  It wasn’t an awful funk, I was able to maintain my workouts and be pretty productive, but couldn’t shake the feeling ofContinue reading “Be the Light”

I’m Starting to Lose my SH**

Monday March 16, 2020 You know on the bachelor and bachelorette when certain contestants clearly begin to lose it?  It’s hard to relate, what did they expect anyway?  They knew what they were getting into, right?  I mean, they don’t have phones or tv, but they are at a beautiful mansion with unlimited access toContinue reading “I’m Starting to Lose my SH**”

That Virus

The Coronavirus and I have a long history.  Oh wait, it’s the Parvovirus, another k9 disease that I have a long history with.   I’ve had two different types of doctors tell me, 5 years apart, that I have the Parvovirus and that it is causing me arthritic symptoms.  That’s a story for another time. ToContinue reading “That Virus”

Thank You, Universe

When I was at a new school in 2013, I was going through severe and random health problems.  I was mad, sad and scared, but the Universe put a woman in my life who was diagnosed with a chronic illness at my same age, and who helped me see that these problems, although seemingly arbitrary,Continue reading “Thank You, Universe”

MUD

We’ve been taking care of our 16 year old nephew since early October.  We are trying our best to do right by him, including encouraging him to have a decent relationship with his mom– my hubby’s sister. We encouraged him to reach out to her to spend some time with her over the holiday break. Continue reading “MUD”