Ego and Resistance, the Defiant Duo

Day #798        Wednesday, June 2, 2021 My mission in life has become to do whatever I need to do in order to stay in a state of happiness. Everytime I think I’ve cracked the code, my mind laughs at me. Since returning to work and dealing with typical work stress like traffic,Continue reading “Ego and Resistance, the Defiant Duo”

Honey, I Killed Your Ego

If only it were that easy. If only I could don my superhero costume and go rescue my hubby’s soul… imprisoned by years of manipulation and abuse from his ego. It’s like the old devil and angel on your shoulder, you know, the wolf you feed? We all have a devil and an angel, andContinue reading “Honey, I Killed Your Ego”

Always Watching

My oldest kiddo is a huge Tetris fan. When one of the most well known champs passed away recently, he was in shock. He told me about a headline he saw, saying Jonas Neubauer has died, which he thought was a joke. Then he told me about his wife’s Twitter statement, confirming the awful news.Continue reading “Always Watching”

Survivor Guilt

I came across this post yesterday, and it made me cry. I guess it hits hard because as I’m working on my vision board, I’m feeling so incredibly pumped for year 44. And I think of the people in my life who are still drinking regularly, and think, why have I found recovery, and theyContinue reading “Survivor Guilt”

How about some Self-Love for 2021?

Self love is the foundation of health. Without it, our lives can become unmanageable, and it can happen so gradually, we may not even realize it. It’s not always easy, and can feel really icky to take care of ourselves. But self-care makes up the blocks of that foundation. It can feel greedy when weContinue reading “How about some Self-Love for 2021?”

Teachers are Everywhere

WOAH this week got a little ugly. That last day that I wrote ended with me in a fetal position bawling on the shag rug next to the fireplace around midnight- way past my bedtime. My mood was much lighter the following day. I think much of this was hormonal, plus holiday stress. I amContinue reading “Teachers are Everywhere”

Ho’oponopono

Ho’oponopono is a magic prayer. I’m not very proud of my post from yesterday. It screams ‘Pity Party’. Before I wrote, I knew that I needed some gratitude practice. So before I even started, I jotted this down: It did help, along with writing my post. I cried during meditation yesterday and today. I thinkContinue reading “Ho’oponopono”

Running

Everything is bothering me today, this week, this month, actually. I’m usually pretty upbeat & grateful, but my ego has my head exhausted. Maybe it’s being stuck in a dirty house with so many men. There is often tension between my hubby and my teenage nephew, who isn’t used to discipline and quite frankly, ITContinue reading “Running”

Day Counters

Day 625 The day counter became my nemesis in early recovery. I’ve reset that sucker too many times to count. I’ve tried abstaining without keeping track of days, because for awhile, I was too obsessed with the counter. During the first year, I played around with not using it at all. Eventually, I found itContinue reading “Day Counters”

Deadsgiving

Today is Thanksgiving here in the United States. People all over will be cooking, eating, watching football, doing LOTS of drinking. Then the really crazy ones will wake up early tomorrow morning to get the good ‘Black Friday’ deals. I’m not exactly sure when I began to despise the holidays. Probably after a few yearsContinue reading “Deadsgiving”