The Voices in my Head

Advertisements It’s been 899 days since I was last in the shackles of Vodka. I feel free. Life is so simple, yet so good I’m not worried about much these days. And when my worries become unleashed, I pull out my shock collar to put them in their place. My head is no place forContinue reading “The Voices in my Head”

Namago: The ego in me…

Advertisements I’m coining a new term, namago. To me, it means: The ego in me recognizes the ego in you. A common translation for namaste is: the light in me, recognizes the light in you. You see, I’m learning how to handle my emotions, and to keep my cool, but sometimes I lose it. IContinue reading “Namago: The ego in me…”

Day 844 – I Can Self-Soothe

Advertisements Last Saturday got interesting after my I posted about my kiddo. I was taking care of him and thinking that he should be at a hospital, well I got my wish, I guess. Sometime after I wrote, he started to run a fever and it began to rise fast. He was too painful toContinue reading “Day 844 – I Can Self-Soothe”

Can’t Touch This

Advertisements Every now and again the Universe forces me to slow way down. This is one of those times. My oldest has had a painful cyst all week that has slowly gotten more debilitating. It’s not a common thing, so we didn’t get proper care to begin with. It started about 11 days ago. IContinue reading “Can’t Touch This”

Ego and Resistance, the Defiant Duo

Advertisements Day #798        Wednesday, June 2, 2021 My mission in life has become to do whatever I need to do in order to stay in a state of happiness. Everytime I think I’ve cracked the code, my mind laughs at me. Since returning to work and dealing with typical work stress likeContinue reading “Ego and Resistance, the Defiant Duo”

Honey, I Killed Your Ego

Advertisements If only it were that easy. If only I could don my superhero costume and go rescue my hubby’s soul… imprisoned by years of manipulation and abuse from his ego. It’s like the old devil and angel on your shoulder, you know, the wolf you feed? We all have a devil and an angel,Continue reading “Honey, I Killed Your Ego”

Always Watching

Advertisements My oldest kiddo is a huge Tetris fan. When one of the most well known champs passed away recently, he was in shock. He told me about a headline he saw, saying Jonas Neubauer has died, which he thought was a joke. Then he told me about his wife’s Twitter statement, confirming the awfulContinue reading “Always Watching”

Survivor Guilt

Advertisements I came across this post yesterday, and it made me cry. I guess it hits hard because as I’m working on my vision board, I’m feeling so incredibly pumped for year 44. And I think of the people in my life who are still drinking regularly, and think, why have I found recovery, andContinue reading “Survivor Guilt”

How about some Self-Love for 2021?

Advertisements Self love is the foundation of health. Without it, our lives can become unmanageable, and it can happen so gradually, we may not even realize it. It’s not always easy, and can feel really icky to take care of ourselves. But self-care makes up the blocks of that foundation. It can feel greedy whenContinue reading “How about some Self-Love for 2021?”

Teachers are Everywhere

Advertisements WOAH this week got a little ugly. That last day that I wrote ended with me in a fetal position bawling on the shag rug next to the fireplace around midnight- way past my bedtime. My mood was much lighter the following day. I think much of this was hormonal, plus holiday stress. IContinue reading “Teachers are Everywhere”