Right now, I’m happy and content doing what I’m doing. I do not feel in any way, shape or form that I am “white knuckling” it.
Guys– I finally feel like I hit a milestone! MOST of the time my alcoholic voice (Betsy) is silent. BUT.. every week or two she tries to talk me into drinking and all summer long I have caved into her wishes. NOT tonight– although it was the perfect opportunity. My dad took my kids forContinue reading “Practice and Persistence Makes Progress”
Yeah, I know, you’ve always been there. For decades I’ve given you my nightly time and attention, while neglecting others and myself. You demanded so much of my attention– I’ve had time for nothing else.
You take away my memory, the amnesia is a scary nightly occurrence. You have taken over my life.
Sunday morning here and this weekend has been a mixed bag so far. Friday night was great. I listened (didn’t participate or share) to an online AA meeting and I could relate with the other members. I got to bed late but slept in until 10:30am on Saturday morning. I had nothing pressing toContinue reading “The Lies of Addiction”
One step forward, two steps back. That’s how I feel on this funky Friday morning. Drank again yesterday, although I didn’t start last night. I started yester- day– yes during the day. Two nights ago drinking wine was pleasant. It felt good up until I went to bed (which I don’t remember). Yesterday the firstContinue reading “Pack Your Bags”
It is Thursday morning and I sadly woke up with a wine hangover headache. Let’s back up to Tuesday. On Tuesday, I wanted wine badly. Hubby gave me some tough love and I didn’t give in to the craving. It felt GREAT to wake up on Wednesday, knowing that I didn’t blow it. I nowContinue reading “Moderation Condemnation”
I decided after writing yesterday to dump out the remaining alcohol. I didn’t want to plan on drinking last night– or any of the future nights. I’ve established a pattern with my relapses. This pattern began after my initial 92 days of sobriety that started back in February 2017. The relapse starts with an urge.Continue reading “Day 2”
First of all, Scout Camp was pretty amazing! It was a little bit like a wellness retreat, well except the food. Anthony’s first 2 classes were at the lake (AKA a big pond). There was a nice trail nearby that went along a stream. I spent the mornings laying by the lake, reading myContinue reading “Old Habits Don’t Die, Back to Day 1”
I am putting my overeating issues aside for the time being. I have bigger fish to fry (literally). Tomorrow morning, at the crack of dawn, Anthony and I leave for scout camp! I am slightly excited, a little nervous & apprehensive, a little happy and a little sad. I went last year for a fewContinue reading “Preparing for Scout Camp”
It was an interesting day yesterday at the beach party. Some of the people I was with were drinking and some weren’t. My dad and his friend were drinking mixed drinks with vodka out of a cream soda bottle. He was pretty buzzed and it was weird. I would have enjoyed drinking along with himContinue reading “Family Fun Day at the Beach, 7-8-17”