I hit what felt like “rock bottom” two nights ago. I didn’t go to jail– or screw up my marriage– but I was at an all time low– feeling completely helpless, hopeless and just plain sad. This was Sunday and I had spent the whole day trying not to burst into tears over my foot and the uncertainties that have come with it.
November 3, 2018 Sometimes it truly takes everything coming to a head to gain the momentum for real change. I am at that point. I’ve felt an enormous amount of stress this week from a variety of factors. #1 Offender: My job. Work is usually low stress for me. I usually don’t have a tonContinue reading “Turbulent Cycle”
My life is slowly spiraling out of control. I am at ease with it. I know that I have to make some big changes, I’m just not ready yet. I quit the AIP diet in the third week. It was a TOUGH week. All my meals were tasting so gross, I was choking them down,Continue reading “Life and My Stinkin’ Thinkin’”
Honestly, I have been SO crabby the past 2 days I can’t even stand myself! I could not sleep well on Sunday so I was so tired all day Monday. Slept very well last night (Monday) but I’m drinking only decaf tea & was just groggy & not well all day. Also woke up withContinue reading “Pity Party: Time for a Gratuity List”
Hi everyone! I haven’t written in forever. This won’t be a long post– I just wanted to check in quickly. Things have been good here. As you probably know from my past posts, my Rheumatoid Arthritis returned with a vengeance in July. I had many pains and swelling. I was taking Humira every 2 weeksContinue reading “The Price of Over Indulgence”
July 24, 2018 This summer has been the most cousinest summer ever! Given 10 random days, at least 9 of them would include at least 1 cousin hanging at our house. It has been nice having a full house. My 14 year old nephew has been living with his grandparents, my inlaws. They live behindContinue reading “Cousin Summer and the Return of My Disease”
THIS is how I would like to feel: I can’t control what happens to me or my loved ones all the time. God has a plan and I don’t know what that entails, but know that he will help me get through the tough times— always. The next time I lose someone that I love, I can grieve without alcohol– or I can pick up the bottle again. Drinking will not make it better– in fact, it will just make everything so much harder. I know that during the toughest times of my life, God will help me make it through without picking up a drink, I trust him.