24 Hours (March 2019: The last Day 1) Super ugly post warning. I don’t remember having a day feeling this low. I wasn’t going to drink last night, but I did. I woke up in a puddle of piss. I WET the f’ing bed! I can’t even tell you the amount of shame and guiltContinue reading “Sole Purpose”
Life during a pandemic can get old & monotonous. My family & I have begun some fun routines. It all started with a bulgar bowl. At the start of the school year, all of our boys were at school on Fridays & hubby & I worked from home. We treasured these days, with a quietContinue reading “Foodie Family Fun”
June 2016I am starting to get nervous. A couple of weeks ago, I was pretty hyped up, excited. Now that the clock is ticking, I don’t know if I can follow through. How can I? I’m so used to old habits and the way things are, how can I change? I keep hoping that ifContinue reading “2nd blog entry ~ Day -190 (from the very 1st Day 1)”
I only call myself an alcoholic at AA meetings.
Drinking in my 20’s was so much fun. At 22, I met my hubby at a small, rickety, hole-in-the-wall bar. It wasn’t a place my friend and I went to find a husband, we even bet who could find the guy with the most teeth (we were in our 20’s and MEAN AF). I vaguelyContinue reading “When the Party’s Over: The Pitcher Plant Theory”
2020 U.S. Election Some of us lost our dream candidate. Some of us gained our dream candidate. We are love. We choose Love. We pray for one another and believe the President Elect to keep a commitment to heal the nation. He cannot do it alone. It takes TRANSFORMATION. Each one of us. Trust, layingContinue reading “All We Need is Love”
I realized that without knowing about the ego and the awful voice it has, I’m certain my writing would have never gotten this far. All summer long, that voice was like, This story is stupid. You’re wasting your time. No one will ever read this. You should stop now.
I woke up super early this morning and braved the elements. My mind was running while running through the dark cold. Something made me think of the incidents below and it felt shameful, so I decided to blog about it, even though it has nothing to do with sobriety. When I was about 18, IContinue reading “I Didn’t Understand the Black Lives Matter Movement, But Now I Do”
What if our most despised attribute can serve us? I suppose it started with a seed, planted by the world renowned functional doctor, Dr. Tent. Before him, I wasn’t aware of any ‘problem’. When trying to figure out why my body was attacking itself, I admitted that I was an alcoholic. Dr. Tent then wentContinue reading “Monkey Mind is my Super Power”