We Do Recover

Day #619- Really it took something like 1300 days to get here, but who’s counting? I’m reminiscing today. Back in 2016 or 2017 I was having a conversation with a colleague at the Keurig machine one early morning. I was in a sad state. Hungover, head pounding, puffy face and eyes and not sure thatContinue reading “We Do Recover”

Limits

I wish I learned about that voice when I was younger. That voice, that tells me I suck. The one that says I’m not good enough. The one that whispered in my ear nearly every single day this past summer, that the hours I poured into my novel were a colossal waste.  It’s no wonderContinue reading “Limits”

Day 612 and the Ancy Ego

I feel like I grew a little this Thanksgiving holiday. I’m more focused on what I need to feel peaceful and honoring that. In the past I was too compliant and felt way too bad skipping a holiday. Have I become selfish? Having a trip planned for Christians has been the best therapy for theContinue reading “Day 612 and the Ancy Ego”

Deadsgiving

Today is Thanksgiving here in the United States. People all over will be cooking, eating, watching football, doing LOTS of drinking. Then the really crazy ones will wake up early tomorrow morning to get the good ‘Black Friday’ deals. I’m not exactly sure when I began to despise the holidays. Probably after a few yearsContinue reading “Deadsgiving”

Sole Purpose

24 Hours (March 2019: The last Day 1) Super ugly post warning. I don’t remember having a day feeling this low. I wasn’t going to drink last night, but I did. I woke up in a puddle of piss. I WET the f’ing bed! I can’t even tell you the amount of shame and guiltContinue reading “Sole Purpose”

Foodie Family Fun

Life during a pandemic can get old & monotonous. My family & I have begun some fun routines. It all started with a bulgar bowl. At the start of the school year, all of our boys were at school on Fridays & hubby & I worked from home. We treasured these days, with a quietContinue reading “Foodie Family Fun”

2nd blog entry ~ Day -190 (from the very 1st Day 1)

June 2016I am starting to get nervous. A couple of weeks ago, I was pretty hyped up, excited. Now that the clock is ticking, I don’t know if I can follow through. How can I? I’m so used to old habits and the way things are, how can I change? I keep hoping that ifContinue reading “2nd blog entry ~ Day -190 (from the very 1st Day 1)”

When the Party’s Over: The Pitcher Plant Theory

Drinking in my 20’s was so much fun. At 22, I met my hubby at a small, rickety, hole-in-the-wall bar.  It wasn’t a place my friend and I went to find a husband, we even bet who could find the guy with the most teeth (we were in our 20’s and MEAN AF). I vaguelyContinue reading “When the Party’s Over: The Pitcher Plant Theory”