I Didn’t Understand the Black Lives Matter Movement, But Now I Do

I woke up super early this morning and braved the elements. My mind was running while running through the dark cold. Something made me think of the incidents below and it felt shameful, so I decided to blog about it, even though it has nothing to do with sobriety. When I was about 18, IContinue reading “I Didn’t Understand the Black Lives Matter Movement, But Now I Do”

Monkey Mind is my Super Power

What if our most despised attribute can serve us? I suppose it started with a seed, planted by the world renowned functional doctor, Dr. Tent. Before him, I wasn’t aware of any ‘problem’. When trying to figure out why my body was attacking itself, I admitted that I was an alcoholic. Dr. Tent then wentContinue reading “Monkey Mind is my Super Power”

Day #560 Everything’s Weird

It is lunchtime and absolutely gorgeous out for October. The entire family is working from home today, and hubby and I are spending our lunch on the deck. It’s a sunny 66 degrees, but very windy. We have the small fire table on and it feels good. We both have to be back to workContinue reading “Day #560 Everything’s Weird”

Day #549; the Lies of Alcohol

I didn’t decide stop drinking 549 days ago. It was more like 3 years ago that I decided I want to stop. For some people, like me, relapses are part of the process. For me, there was a pattern. I’d achieve some length of sobriety, 2 weeks, a month, sometimes even more before relapsing. AfterContinue reading “Day #549; the Lies of Alcohol”

Friendships are Hard

Day #537 I’m coming off the weekend feeling sad & exhausted, despite some personal feats. I became an ordained minister over the summer & on Saturday I married my childhood best friend and the boyfriend she met over 20 years ago. Let me start by saying what a mistake that was 🤦🏻‍♀️ I mean, itContinue reading “Friendships are Hard”

Dead Birds

For the longest time, I haven’t been the biggest fan of birds. I think it started when I was a teenager working at the vet clinic. We had an avian doctor and I hated, repeat hated working with the birds. They were so delicate, you could crush them with the wrong move of your finger,Continue reading “Dead Birds”

Day #520- The F*** It’s

I have a MAJOR case of the “F*** It” today. I’ve felt like a pressure cooker from the moment I picked up my phone today (mental note to not do that again). My mood was exasperated by darkness and pouring rain, a leaky basement that we keep throwing money at with no success, and aContinue reading “Day #520- The F*** It’s”

Life is a Sham (I guess)

Day #517 Despite being in the midst of a 2020 shit show, life is so good. This was the most unique and wonderful summer ever. I say wonderful because one of these times when I say it, I’m actually going to believe it. I am getting good at managing my worries, and I’ve had AContinue reading “Life is a Sham (I guess)”

The Vanishing Middle Class

There’s a silent war going on, and it appears to be going unnoticed. There’s a large divide, the haves and the have nots, and I’ve never seen anything like it in my adult life. I don’t know, maybe I’m noticing because I’m directly in the middle, and if shit really hits the fan, I couldContinue reading “The Vanishing Middle Class”