White Feathers, Signs, Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde and Suicide

Come to think of it, why did I even think my coat was stuffed with feathers?  I knew that it can be a sign, but I haven’t looked it up recently, so, right now, as I’m writing this I decided to look it up.  The very first thing that popped up and was highlighted was exactly what I was looking for.  And the date it was posted happened to be on my mom’s death day.  

In the Devil’s Grip

Ahhhhh…. remember the good old days, with longer stretches of sobriety– and me loving getting in some extra exercise on my glorious and beloved sober weekend? Either do it.  It seems like a lifetime ago. This weekend I was particularly brutal to myself.  We had to watch our niece Friday night and I was horrifiedContinue reading “In the Devil’s Grip”

One Cold February

Today is the last day of mid winter break and I found myself awake before 5:00 am.  I am thoroughly enjoying the peaceful house this morning. It’s been a nice, low key break. And the skunk smell is finally gone from our home. Yesterday was particularly nice and productive, yet enjoyable.  I got up, washedContinue reading “One Cold February”

A Very Stinky Week

What was supposed to be a fabulous weekend is turning miserable.  It started on Wednesday. Wednesday was my late mom’s birthday.  I woke up for work and as I got out of bed I looked out into the backyard.  I do this every morning, hoping to catch a glimpse of a deer or coyote.  IContinue reading “A Very Stinky Week”

Love, the Universe

Thursday February 14, 2019 I haven’t written in quite awhile.  Things have been pretty good.  I DID end up drinking on Super Bowl Sunday, my last post.  I think it was the anxiety of thinking about whether or not to go to the neighbor’s party plus thinking that I deserve to have some fun onContinue reading “Love, the Universe”

Just Another Sunday Funday

Superbowl Sunday– woohoo!! This is one of the few days per year that my neighborhood has a party.  Well, mainly one neighbor– but she does invite the entire neighborhood, which includes our half mile long dead end street. I’m not sure if I’ll go to the party.  There is a lot of drinkers and freeContinue reading “Just Another Sunday Funday”

Sunday Runday Funday Wonderful Munday

Ahhhhhh… sweet sunny Sunday morning 🙂  We had a bit of a snowstorm yesterday– the first of the year.  We got about 5 inches or so, so everything outside is covered, and white and peaceful.  The sun is shining brightly and it is a very brisk 1 degree at the moment. It’s been a prettyContinue reading “Sunday Runday Funday Wonderful Munday”

More Good Stuff

Sunday here– and fabulous one at that!  What a great weekend it’s been! If one pic sums up the weekend, this would be it: Ok– it wasn’t all lazy, but it was filled with comfort and joy 🙂 Friday night I skipped out on an after school work retirement get together.  This caused me aContinue reading “More Good Stuff”

The Game of Life is Hard to Play

Gonna lose it anyway? Well, eventually, but hopefully not for awhile anyway.  (Lyrics from Suicide is Painless) Back to work, vacation is over.  All good. Sunday evening was a little rough.  I felt myself get crabby and edgy.  I thought of the Sundays of my past where I would be diligent about getting all ofContinue reading “The Game of Life is Hard to Play”

Thursday Musings

Hello Thursday!  Four days left of vacation and I am soaking it all in (staycation). I woke up with a throbbing foot.  I’m not sure if it’s because I decreased my pred down from 10mg to 5mg per day a few days ago or that I drank alcohol for two nights in a row. IContinue reading “Thursday Musings”