Day #291

Yesterday was absolutely craptastic. It started at 6 am and was nonstop until about 7pm. Frustration #1 was the Saturday forecast. I wouldn’t normally stress on the weekend but I had a work training & could possibly have loads of ice to drive home on. My 30 minute commute could be exponentially longer, terrifying &Continue reading “Day #291”

Stuff It

This holiday season I’ve had a gigantic aversion to stuff.  It may have started this fall when I was so busy with classes, plus we adopted a 3rd kid and all of his stuff, and our basement is still in disarray from the flood and then not finishing the bedroom down there yet.. my entireContinue reading “Stuff It”

Thank You, Universe

When I was at a new school in 2013, I was going through severe and random health problems.  I was mad, sad and scared, but the Universe put a woman in my life who was diagnosed with a chronic illness at my same age, and who helped me see that these problems, although seemingly arbitrary,Continue reading “Thank You, Universe”

Holiday Hooplas

Today is day 263 alcohol free!   I think, most definitely, the hardest thing right now is coping with the cold and holidays without numbing out.  I first tried to get sober in 2017 and ended up drinking over Thanksgiving, and some on the holiday break but not on Christmas/Christmas eve.  In 2018 I was ableContinue reading “Holiday Hooplas”

MUD

We’ve been taking care of our 16 year old nephew since early October.  We are trying our best to do right by him, including encouraging him to have a decent relationship with his mom– my hubby’s sister. We encouraged him to reach out to her to spend some time with her over the holiday break. Continue reading “MUD”

2020

I did something yesterday for the first time ever.  I talked to a psychic medium.  I’m glad that it was over an hour drive there and back and that I had a lot of alone time before and after, because I needed to process the things I heard. I’m not sure what all to say. Continue reading “2020”

Messy Heart; House & Body

It’s the weekend and I am ecstatic to say goodbye to last week.  It was a good week, I mean, no one died or fell seriously ill or injured, so yay! It was just gross.  We had a birthday party at my dad’s on Sunday and it was full of tension, emotions and stress.  ItContinue reading “Messy Heart; House & Body”

7 Months

Today marks the 7th month I’ve been alcohol free.  Sometimes I go back to that last Day 1.  It was horrendous.  I can remember the shame in my heart and the tears in my eyes as I talked to my sister on the way into work.  I did not tell her how awful I feltContinue reading “7 Months”

Deer Day

I took a mental health day last week, and it proved to be extra beneficial to my scraped up soul. I had been really upset with events that happened and knowing that we have to take our nephew and worrying about the impact of that on my own kids and family– along with questioning whetherContinue reading “Deer Day”

The Magical Mandala

  Weird things can happen when you create something that has intentions.  There are expected intentions, and then there are unexpected intentions and it’s the unexpected ones that make your head spin. Last summer I wrote often about reading the Lotus and the Lily book.  I had many profound experiences as I worked through thisContinue reading “The Magical Mandala”