White Feathers, Signs, Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde and Suicide

Come to think of it, why did I even think my coat was stuffed with feathers?  I knew that it can be a sign, but I haven’t looked it up recently, so, right now, as I’m writing this I decided to look it up.  The very first thing that popped up and was highlighted was exactly what I was looking for.  And the date it was posted happened to be on my mom’s death day.  

In the Devil’s Grip

Ahhhhh…. remember the good old days, with longer stretches of sobriety– and me loving getting in some extra exercise on my glorious and beloved sober weekend? Either do it.  It seems like a lifetime ago. This weekend I was particularly brutal to myself.  We had to watch our niece Friday night and I was horrifiedContinue reading “In the Devil’s Grip”

One Cold February

Today is the last day of mid winter break and I found myself awake before 5:00 am.  I am thoroughly enjoying the peaceful house this morning. It’s been a nice, low key break. And the skunk smell is finally gone from our home. Yesterday was particularly nice and productive, yet enjoyable.  I got up, washedContinue reading “One Cold February”

A Very Stinky Week

What was supposed to be a fabulous weekend is turning miserable.  It started on Wednesday. Wednesday was my late mom’s birthday.  I woke up for work and as I got out of bed I looked out into the backyard.  I do this every morning, hoping to catch a glimpse of a deer or coyote.  IContinue reading “A Very Stinky Week”

Love, the Universe

Thursday February 14, 2019 I haven’t written in quite awhile.  Things have been pretty good.  I DID end up drinking on Super Bowl Sunday, my last post.  I think it was the anxiety of thinking about whether or not to go to the neighbor’s party plus thinking that I deserve to have some fun onContinue reading “Love, the Universe”

Sunday Runday Funday Wonderful Munday

Ahhhhhh… sweet sunny Sunday morning 🙂  We had a bit of a snowstorm yesterday– the first of the year.  We got about 5 inches or so, so everything outside is covered, and white and peaceful.  The sun is shining brightly and it is a very brisk 1 degree at the moment. It’s been a prettyContinue reading “Sunday Runday Funday Wonderful Munday”

Thursday Musings

Hello Thursday!  Four days left of vacation and I am soaking it all in (staycation). I woke up with a throbbing foot.  I’m not sure if it’s because I decreased my pred down from 10mg to 5mg per day a few days ago or that I drank alcohol for two nights in a row. IContinue reading “Thursday Musings”

Extraordinary

The first day of the new year always seems to feel fresh and exciting.  SO many promises and hopes, dreams, etc.  A new chapter, the beginning of something novel. I’ve been up since around 5am and it’s been so peaceful and serene around here. I’ve had lots of time to think and reflect. 2018: AContinue reading “Extraordinary”

Little Lost Soul

I have a soft spot for lost cats. When I was around 5 years old, we took a trip up north to my grandparent’s cottage and brought our white cat, Bozo, with us.  When it comes to pets & animal care, my young parents were not the brightest.  Bozo was antsy by the time weContinue reading “Little Lost Soul”

The Exhausting Addiction Cycle

I read a blog some time ago that has really been on my mind lately. It was about relapsing and going through the most difficult part of sobriety over and over and over again. I feel like this has been where I’m at since July (UGH, like a whole 1/2 year wasted.. makes me feelContinue reading “The Exhausting Addiction Cycle”