Seasons End

Summer nights and long warm days  Are stolen as the old moon falls  And My mirror shows another face  Another place to hide it all  Another place to hide it all  And I’m lost, behind  The words I’ll never find  And I’m left behind  As seasons roll on by  Sleeping with a full moon blanket Continue reading “Seasons End”

Almost 300 Days

Today is day 298 alcohol free.  Do you know what sucks most about abusing and then abstaining from that wicked poison?  It is so easy to forget how deceitful it is.  Already, I’m humoring the thoughts of drinking after that year mark.  But WHY? I KNOW, 100% for sure, where it’ll lead me.  It’s notContinue reading “Almost 300 Days”

Day #291

Yesterday was absolutely craptastic. It started at 6 am and was nonstop until about 7pm. Frustration #1 was the Saturday forecast. I wouldn’t normally stress on the weekend but I had a work training & could possibly have loads of ice to drive home on. My 30 minute commute could be exponentially longer, terrifying &Continue reading “Day #291”

Stuff It

This holiday season I’ve had a gigantic aversion to stuff.  It may have started this fall when I was so busy with classes, plus we adopted a 3rd kid and all of his stuff, and our basement is still in disarray from the flood and then not finishing the bedroom down there yet.. my entireContinue reading “Stuff It”

Holiday Meltdown

December 27th here–  we made it through the holidays, some unscathed and others not. This holiday season taught me two things: to try to find the good and sometimes you have to put yourself first, even if it’s uncomfortable. I think this is my 1st completely sober full holiday season.   If I’m remembering correctly, inContinue reading “Holiday Meltdown”

Thank You, Universe

When I was at a new school in 2013, I was going through severe and random health problems.  I was mad, sad and scared, but the Universe put a woman in my life who was diagnosed with a chronic illness at my same age, and who helped me see that these problems, although seemingly arbitrary,Continue reading “Thank You, Universe”

Holiday Hooplas

Today is day 263 alcohol free!   I think, most definitely, the hardest thing right now is coping with the cold and holidays without numbing out.  I first tried to get sober in 2017 and ended up drinking over Thanksgiving, and some on the holiday break but not on Christmas/Christmas eve.  In 2018 I was ableContinue reading “Holiday Hooplas”

MUD

We’ve been taking care of our 16 year old nephew since early October.  We are trying our best to do right by him, including encouraging him to have a decent relationship with his mom– my hubby’s sister. We encouraged him to reach out to her to spend some time with her over the holiday break. Continue reading “MUD”

2020

I did something yesterday for the first time ever.  I talked to a psychic medium.  I’m glad that it was over an hour drive there and back and that I had a lot of alone time before and after, because I needed to process the things I heard. I’m not sure what all to say. Continue reading “2020”

Gross Realization

I found out something last night that has been bothering me, and it’s not really something that I can talk about with anyone, so I’m going to put it here. Let’s go back to May 2014 for a second.  We had a 13 year old boxer named Boss.  May 8th was a typical Thursday.  IContinue reading “Gross Realization”