Today is Monday and day 8 AF. Yesterday ended up being a great day, which I was productive. I cleaned all the bathrooms and got a severe case of hypoglycemia during. My BG was like 45, so I stopped to make and drink a shake. Afterwards, my hands were still shaking and I knew itContinue reading “Day 8”
Oooooooh I do have a love/hate relationship with Sundays! I am feeling pretty relaxed although the looming thought of making lunches and preparing for tomorrow is creeping into the forefront of my mind. Happy last week before holiday break! I simply can’t believe that it is already time for holiday break. Didn’t we JUST goContinue reading “Sunday Funday”
He always wants to cure my alcohol problem. First he gave me a food grade lithium that would quiet my mind. I haven’t noticed a difference, but often wonder if I would if I could stay sober for more than a couple weeks at a time. He thinks I have problems regulating my blood sugar and that its causing me to have anxiety, mood swings and cravings.
Today is the last day of Thanksgiving break and I am bouncing around the house with a gigantic permagrin on my face. I am just So. Incredibly. Overjoyed. And yes, I am bouncing! Today was nothing short of a miracle. I took Jules for about a mile long walk. I rode over 4 miles onContinue reading “Sober Miracles”
Yesterday was thanksgiving and I am thankful that the long day is over. The day was really nice with family, but also mentally exhausting. Thankfully, I wasn’t triggered and didn’t desire to drink after I got home (often at the in-laws I RUSH home to drink). I was a good listener tonight. Listened as myContinue reading “Thanksgiving and My 2nd Holistic Doctor Visit”
My life is slowly spiraling out of control. I am at ease with it. I know that I have to make some big changes, I’m just not ready yet. I quit the AIP diet in the third week. It was a TOUGH week. All my meals were tasting so gross, I was choking them down,Continue reading “Life and My Stinkin’ Thinkin’”
Honestly, I have been SO crabby the past 2 days I can’t even stand myself! I could not sleep well on Sunday so I was so tired all day Monday. Slept very well last night (Monday) but I’m drinking only decaf tea & was just groggy & not well all day. Also woke up withContinue reading “Pity Party: Time for a Gratuity List”
Hi everyone! I haven’t written in forever. This won’t be a long post– I just wanted to check in quickly. Things have been good here. As you probably know from my past posts, my Rheumatoid Arthritis returned with a vengeance in July. I had many pains and swelling. I was taking Humira every 2 weeksContinue reading “The Price of Over Indulgence”
THIS is how I would like to feel: I can’t control what happens to me or my loved ones all the time. God has a plan and I don’t know what that entails, but know that he will help me get through the tough times— always. The next time I lose someone that I love, I can grieve without alcohol– or I can pick up the bottle again. Drinking will not make it better– in fact, it will just make everything so much harder. I know that during the toughest times of my life, God will help me make it through without picking up a drink, I trust him.
So this idea of perfection, it’s just an idea and isn’t even anything tangible. Thinking and wanting will do nothing but make you sad and unhappy. We must take social media with a grain of salt and realize that we are not seeing the whole picture.