THIS is how I would like to feel: I can’t control what happens to me or my loved ones all the time. God has a plan and I don’t know what that entails, but know that he will help me get through the tough times— always. The next time I lose someone that I love, I can grieve without alcohol– or I can pick up the bottle again. Drinking will not make it better– in fact, it will just make everything so much harder. I know that during the toughest times of my life, God will help me make it through without picking up a drink, I trust him.
So this idea of perfection, it’s just an idea and isn’t even anything tangible. Thinking and wanting will do nothing but make you sad and unhappy. We must take social media with a grain of salt and realize that we are not seeing the whole picture.
When hubby got home, I was in the kitchen making dinner. I had some wine left in the garage and wanted it SO badly, it hurt. In fact, when he got home, he hugged me and I started to sob.
I don’t want to continue to abuse this beautiful and miraculous temple that was given to me by God. It has done SO much for me, and I continued to stomp on it and berate it.
First of all, Scout Camp was pretty amazing! It was a little bit like a wellness retreat, well except the food. Anthony’s first 2 classes were at the lake (AKA a big pond). There was a nice trail nearby that went along a stream. I spent the mornings laying by the lake, reading myContinue reading “Old Habits Don’t Die, Back to Day 1”
I am putting my overeating issues aside for the time being. I have bigger fish to fry (literally). Tomorrow morning, at the crack of dawn, Anthony and I leave for scout camp! I am slightly excited, a little nervous & apprehensive, a little happy and a little sad. I went last year for a fewContinue reading “Preparing for Scout Camp”