MUD

We’ve been taking care of our 16 year old nephew since early October.  We are trying our best to do right by him, including encouraging him to have a decent relationship with his mom– my hubby’s sister. We encouraged him to reach out to her to spend some time with her over the holiday break. Continue reading “MUD”

2020

I did something yesterday for the first time ever.  I talked to a psychic medium.  I’m glad that it was over an hour drive there and back and that I had a lot of alone time before and after, because I needed to process the things I heard. I’m not sure what all to say. Continue reading “2020”

Gross Realization

I found out something last night that has been bothering me, and it’s not really something that I can talk about with anyone, so I’m going to put it here. Let’s go back to May 2014 for a second.  We had a 13 year old boxer named Boss.  May 8th was a typical Thursday.  IContinue reading “Gross Realization”

Messy Heart; House & Body

It’s the weekend and I am ecstatic to say goodbye to last week.  It was a good week, I mean, no one died or fell seriously ill or injured, so yay! It was just gross.  We had a birthday party at my dad’s on Sunday and it was full of tension, emotions and stress.  ItContinue reading “Messy Heart; House & Body”

7 Months

Today marks the 7th month I’ve been alcohol free.  Sometimes I go back to that last Day 1.  It was horrendous.  I can remember the shame in my heart and the tears in my eyes as I talked to my sister on the way into work.  I did not tell her how awful I feltContinue reading “7 Months”

Deer Day

I took a mental health day last week, and it proved to be extra beneficial to my scraped up soul. I had been really upset with events that happened and knowing that we have to take our nephew and worrying about the impact of that on my own kids and family– along with questioning whetherContinue reading “Deer Day”

The Magical Mandala

  Weird things can happen when you create something that has intentions.  There are expected intentions, and then there are unexpected intentions and it’s the unexpected ones that make your head spin. Last summer I wrote often about reading the Lotus and the Lily book.  I had many profound experiences as I worked through thisContinue reading “The Magical Mandala”

200 Days Without Alcohol

For the most part, I am feeling really good! I feel that I’ve made tremendous emotional and spiritual growth since first getting sober in 2017.  I want to reflect today.  I’ve been thinking a lot about the many intrinsic thoughts that have changed for me– all in very good ways.  I used to have soContinue reading “200 Days Without Alcohol”

No Toe Cancer

Dr. Jones called yesterday to tell me that Jules cytology came back as inflammation only, no cancer.  I was overjoyed! She is still concerned.  She wants him to take a course of pred and to keep him off it as much as we can.  That means no walks 🙁 We have been into a greatContinue reading “No Toe Cancer”

Don’t Go Breakin’ his Heart

As a mom of older kids (16 and 11), we don’t hit milestones often anymore.  That makes them that more exciting when they do happen. A big one happened last week, one that I have been eagerly but patiently waiting for.  One that I knew would probably open up a can of worms that isContinue reading “Don’t Go Breakin’ his Heart”