On the 12th Day…

Back to the grind today! Monday is especially brutal after a week off, but I made it in! Didn’t get up early to walk/run, and I did not do my ritual this morning either. BUT.. I made it to work and had time for a shower, so that’s something right? I’m reading an awesome soulContinue reading “On the 12th Day…”

Cruise Control

It’s Thursday and Spring Break is cruising right along, a little too fast for my liking. It hasn’t been a super productful week, but I’m still sober so I’ve felt grateful every day. The weekend was pretty full. On Saturday, our friends came down from Bay City. My BFF, Debbie, brought a cake for myContinue reading “Cruise Control”

24 Hours

It’s been a busy couple of days. I drank once since the last time I wrote and I believe it’ll be the last. I was SO filled with guilt and shame the next day, it still makes me cry. This is what I posted in my sober circle that sums it up: Super ugly postContinue reading “24 Hours”

The Devil Inside

I’ve been thinking a lot about my thinking. I’ve been researching also and have read some really great books about our powerful mind– and that pesky voice– you know, the one I call Betsy. I’ve been noticing things that intrigue me, and wondering. Why am I so depressed when I’m not sober? Is it becauseContinue reading “The Devil Inside”

My WHY

My kids My hubby My extended family My health (mental, emotional, physical) My students To remember going to bed and what I said To be productive at work To wake up clear headed and energized To sleep well To pursue my hobbies and create new ones To be able to exercise and push myself harderContinue reading “My WHY”

Diabetes Fun

I am not always proud of my parenting skills– I think that is normal and to be expected. Sometimes I lose my temper, or don’t follow through with things.. But I am doing the best that I can and at the end of the day my boys know that they are loved. Having a childContinue reading “Diabetes Fun”

The Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

Yesterday was gross, like all of it, just ick. It wasn’t what happened, so much, it was more how I felt and dealing with those feelings. Not long ago, you see, those same exact feelings would have me reaching for external comfort– food, liquor, wine, pot… any of it would do. So.. when what startedContinue reading “The Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day”

Zen Life 

Yesterday I posted about suicide.  It’s impacted me, and just about everyone else on planet earth.   I couldn’t fathom how anyone could do that to their family, particularly if you have kids.  All I knew is that I DIDN’T know.  Having another incident hit close to home, it’s been on my mind this weekContinue reading “Zen Life “