Merry Christmas

I’m feeling a mixed bag of emotions this morning.  I’m really upset with myself because I drank last night. We were celebrating at my dad’s and my sister was drinking wine (as usual).  We brought a bunch of La Croix and Bai drinks and while I considered but then talked myself out of drinking wine,Continue reading “Merry Christmas”

Christmas Eve Eve Morning

Day 15 today!  Feeling good about being sober, but the rest of me might be falling apart. I’m supposed to take my Humira every 7-10 days.  It’s been about 3 weeks since I took it.  I thought I had a Parvo Virus that mimicked RA and that I could not take it and not beContinue reading “Christmas Eve Eve Morning”

Bah Humbug, and One Day at a Time

My mom died over 4 years ago and I’m not sure why it’s hitting me hard this particular Christmas.  I just want the holidays to go away– or be done with already.  Our decorations nearly didn’t make it out and I’ve only bought two small gifts so far. The new year can’t come fast enough!Continue reading “Bah Humbug, and One Day at a Time”

Day 8

Today is Monday and day 8 AF. Yesterday ended up being a great day, which I was productive.  I cleaned all the bathrooms and got a severe case of hypoglycemia during.  My BG was like 45, so I stopped to make and drink a shake.  Afterwards, my hands were still shaking and I knew itContinue reading “Day 8”

Sunday Funday

Oooooooh I do have a love/hate relationship with Sundays! I am feeling pretty relaxed although the looming thought of making lunches and preparing for tomorrow is creeping into the forefront of my mind. Happy last week before holiday break!  I simply can’t believe that it is already time for holiday break.  Didn’t we JUST goContinue reading “Sunday Funday”

Progression and Keeping My Sanity

I’m gaining mental and emotional momentum as well as physical.  I’ve been meditating and writing a lot this week.  That and being outside walking or running, feeds my soul with pure joy and happiness.  I wrote on Monday that I want 100 days and I think that I am well on my way.  I want more though, I really want a year and then years– until I die.  BUT, realistically — it’s one day at a time & that’s what I’ll count on!  

Healing the Body, Mind and Soul

He always wants to cure my alcohol problem.  First he gave me a food grade lithium that would quiet my mind.  I haven’t noticed a difference, but often wonder if I would if I could stay sober for more than a couple weeks at a time.  He thinks I have problems regulating my blood sugar and that its causing me to have anxiety, mood swings and cravings.

Day 2

Yesterday ended up being a really annoying day.  After I wrote, right before lunch my youngest’s school called to tell me that he came to the office equipped with a garbage can ready to get sick everywhere.  My oldest had stayed home sick with a stomachache so I wondered if we had a virus inContinue reading “Day 2”

Choices

People in MY family really DON’T understand that I have this problem.  They only know that sometimes I drink and other times I don’t.  Wow, they must think that I really have things under control– how ironic!  

Sober Miracles

Today is the last day of Thanksgiving break and I am bouncing around the house with a gigantic permagrin on my face.  I am just So. Incredibly. Overjoyed.  And yes, I am bouncing! Today was nothing short of a miracle.  I took Jules for about a mile long walk.  I rode over 4 miles onContinue reading “Sober Miracles”