People in MY family really DON’T understand that I have this problem. They only know that sometimes I drink and other times I don’t. Wow, they must think that I really have things under control– how ironic!
Today is the last day of Thanksgiving break and I am bouncing around the house with a gigantic permagrin on my face. I am just So. Incredibly. Overjoyed. And yes, I am bouncing! Today was nothing short of a miracle. I took Jules for about a mile long walk. I rode over 4 miles onContinue reading “Sober Miracles”
Summer 2018 is coming to a close! Well, technically, we have about a month left of summer, but summer vacation is almost history. Today is Friday and I go back to work on Tuesday. I was at school last week for a meeting and most teachers are already hard at work setting up their classrooms. Continue reading “Summer Reflections”
I could l see myself in both women and on the way home I reflected–WHO do I want to be?
Today is Tuesday and it has been a successful week so far. I want to also celebrate the fact, that besides that funk I found myself in early on, this summer has pretty much been free of depression. This tells me that I am nurturing my soul and living in a way that makes myContinue reading “Two Very Different Meetings”
Being able to remember last night Not having to worry about what you said or did Waking up with a clear head Waking up without a pounding headache, physical aches and general feelings of physical and mental angst Enjoying the taste of an AF drink Having enough energy to exercise The physical, mental and spiritualContinue reading “26 Reasons Why Sobriety Rocks”
I spent the past few weeks white knuckling it and had not kept up on my recovery tools and activities. I was so tired of not having control over things– including my own thoughts that were telling me to drink. Deciding to drink felt like it was the one thing that I could control.
July 24, 2018 This summer has been the most cousinest summer ever! Given 10 random days, at least 9 of them would include at least 1 cousin hanging at our house. It has been nice having a full house. My 14 year old nephew has been living with his grandparents, my inlaws. They live behindContinue reading “Cousin Summer and the Return of My Disease”
Oooooh if I could just bottle up these thoughts & save them for when I am tempted in the future, I would in a heartbeat! While it appears Betsy (my inner alcoholic) is expired forever, I know that really she is off on a holiday somewhere doing push-ups, waiting for the perfect time to make a great comeback.
As I was riding and feeling so alive, I thought about alcohol for a millisecond. I thought about how I used to drink it to celebrate when I was super happy and how I used to drink it to drown my sorrows when I was sad. Getting a new car would certainly be a reason to toast and chug down glass after glass of wine. I felt so incredibly grateful for being where I am at– picking up my bike at 9pm NOT a glass of poison. THIS is living, living the good life.