Eight Hundred Days

It’s been 800 days since my last alcoholic beverage. Do I think about drinking a lot?  Nope, not really. Occasionally I crave a drinking session with hubby or a friend, where we laugh way too loud at meaningless things and wake up feeling horribly, not just physically- but mentally and emotionally too. The last partContinue reading “Eight Hundred Days”

Ego and Resistance, the Defiant Duo

Day #798        Wednesday, June 2, 2021 My mission in life has become to do whatever I need to do in order to stay in a state of happiness. Everytime I think I’ve cracked the code, my mind laughs at me. Since returning to work and dealing with typical work stress like traffic,Continue reading “Ego and Resistance, the Defiant Duo”

Honey, I Killed Your Ego

If only it were that easy. If only I could don my superhero costume and go rescue my hubby’s soul… imprisoned by years of manipulation and abuse from his ego. It’s like the old devil and angel on your shoulder, you know, the wolf you feed? We all have a devil and an angel, andContinue reading “Honey, I Killed Your Ego”

Are We Sure ‘Stuff’ Doesn’t Make Us Happy?

Day #717, Saturday March 13, 2021  Yesterday was a gorgeous March Friday in Michigan. In celebration of the great weather we’ve had all week, I ventured out to do some leisurely shopping at TJ Maxx. The only thing that I was specifically looking for was a St. Patty’s Day mask. Anything else that I foundContinue reading “Are We Sure ‘Stuff’ Doesn’t Make Us Happy?”

Day 676 – What’s in Your Garden?

“We don’t see things the way they are. We see things the way We are.” -Talmud I used to see the world through a different set of eyes, because of the way I was. I’ve changed, and so has the landscape I look at everyday. But it’s not the landscape that has changed. I usedContinue reading “Day 676 – What’s in Your Garden?”

Always Watching

My oldest kiddo is a huge Tetris fan. When one of the most well known champs passed away recently, he was in shock. He told me about a headline he saw, saying Jonas Neubauer has died, which he thought was a joke. Then he told me about his wife’s Twitter statement, confirming the awful news.Continue reading “Always Watching”

Day 653

I think of the years I spent, writing on here, about day 1 after day 1 after day 1. At times I felt like a sham, “Hi 👋🏻, me again, I F***ed up yet again.” Feeling like a sober imposter.

Survivor Guilt

I came across this post yesterday, and it made me cry. I guess it hits hard because as I’m working on my vision board, I’m feeling so incredibly pumped for year 44. And I think of the people in my life who are still drinking regularly, and think, why have I found recovery, and theyContinue reading “Survivor Guilt”

No Vision Board

I’ve been working on this vision board for two days and I’m stumped. I’m afraid it’s going to look exactly like my last one, with lots of fresh food and workout pictures, plus writing successes. I want to be specific. I don’t want to be too specific. I may be afraid of commitment. What doContinue reading “No Vision Board”

How about some Self-Love for 2021?

Self love is the foundation of health. Without it, our lives can become unmanageable, and it can happen so gradually, we may not even realize it. It’s not always easy, and can feel really icky to take care of ourselves. But self-care makes up the blocks of that foundation. It can feel greedy when weContinue reading “How about some Self-Love for 2021?”