Hard Things

Day #313 I’ve spent a good part of the past couple months far from the pink cloud.  Small joys come and go, but the big undertone is scared, sad and feeling like I’m ready to burst at the seams. On a superficial level, it is a little bit due to the weather and it beingContinue reading “Hard Things”

Seasons End

Summer nights and long warm days  Are stolen as the old moon falls  And My mirror shows another face  Another place to hide it all  Another place to hide it all  And I’m lost, behind  The words I’ll never find  And I’m left behind  As seasons roll on by  Sleeping with a full moon blanket Continue reading “Seasons End”

Almost 300 Days

Today is day 298 alcohol free.  Do you know what sucks most about abusing and then abstaining from that wicked poison?  It is so easy to forget how deceitful it is.  Already, I’m humoring the thoughts of drinking after that year mark.  But WHY? I KNOW, 100% for sure, where it’ll lead me.  It’s notContinue reading “Almost 300 Days”

Day #291

Yesterday was absolutely craptastic. It started at 6 am and was nonstop until about 7pm. Frustration #1 was the Saturday forecast. I wouldn’t normally stress on the weekend but I had a work training & could possibly have loads of ice to drive home on. My 30 minute commute could be exponentially longer, terrifying &Continue reading “Day #291”

Out of Alignment

I haven’t felt aligned with the Universe for a very long time (well, since early fall or late summer).  I really don’t know if it was a very gradual shift, or if it was sudden and I just didn’t notice.  I’ve been at odds with people and situations in my life and it has beenContinue reading “Out of Alignment”

Stuff It

This holiday season I’ve had a gigantic aversion to stuff.  It may have started this fall when I was so busy with classes, plus we adopted a 3rd kid and all of his stuff, and our basement is still in disarray from the flood and then not finishing the bedroom down there yet.. my entireContinue reading “Stuff It”

Holiday Meltdown

December 27th here–  we made it through the holidays, some unscathed and others not. This holiday season taught me two things: to try to find the good and sometimes you have to put yourself first, even if it’s uncomfortable. I think this is my 1st completely sober full holiday season.   If I’m remembering correctly, inContinue reading “Holiday Meltdown”

Thank You, Universe

When I was at a new school in 2013, I was going through severe and random health problems.  I was mad, sad and scared, but the Universe put a woman in my life who was diagnosed with a chronic illness at my same age, and who helped me see that these problems, although seemingly arbitrary,Continue reading “Thank You, Universe”

Holiday Hooplas

Today is day 263 alcohol free!   I think, most definitely, the hardest thing right now is coping with the cold and holidays without numbing out.  I first tried to get sober in 2017 and ended up drinking over Thanksgiving, and some on the holiday break but not on Christmas/Christmas eve.  In 2018 I was ableContinue reading “Holiday Hooplas”

MUD

We’ve been taking care of our 16 year old nephew since early October.  We are trying our best to do right by him, including encouraging him to have a decent relationship with his mom– my hubby’s sister. We encouraged him to reach out to her to spend some time with her over the holiday break. Continue reading “MUD”