Day 481 and the Gifts of Sobriety

Day 481 It’s 10:00am on a Monday morning.  My niece and I are in the pool, she’s jumping off the edge and swimming like crazy while I’m floating around trying not to get splashed. My favorite Milky Chance song comes on and all I feel is pure joy as I look at Jessica and weContinue reading “Day 481 and the Gifts of Sobriety”

Turn off the Chaos

It’s hard to go about this summer in a normal way when so much commotion is going on in the outside world. I was in a bad place mentally about a week ago and couldn’t stop thinking gloom and doom thoughts about the future, especially going back to work in the fall. This summer hasContinue reading “Turn off the Chaos”

Day 471 and Lessons of 2020

This has been the strangest summer ever, which isn’t surprising considering how weird and messed up 2020 has been.  I went to a psychic in November who gave me a heads up about 2020 being filled with lessons for me.  I was panicked, and would have felt better if I knew that 2020 would beContinue reading “Day 471 and Lessons of 2020”

False Life Stories

After working with and spending so much time with myself the past few years, I’ve really realized that I can be a tough nut to crack.  I have this invisible shield that says to everyone and everything, “It’s FINE, all fine.” even when it’s not fine.  I believe it’s a few things including my intrinsicContinue reading “False Life Stories”

Coronavirus Aftermath- The Good

Life isn’t feeling much different these days. Some things are much different, and probably will be for a long time and that is ok. For example, I had my first in-office doctor visit this week. I had done many virtual visits during the pandemic, including a visit with my rheumatologist, hematologist, general doctor, urgent care for anContinue reading “Coronavirus Aftermath- The Good”

Plants, They’re Just Like Us!

Today is like day #999 in quarantine, ok well it’s really around 100 days or something like that, but we are losing our minds over here. I’ve been thinking a lot about my seedlings lately, as they are getting big and need to be planted into the ground.  I have to tell you that I’veContinue reading “Plants, They’re Just Like Us!”

2020 is Epic

As far as this pandemic goes, things appear to be looking up. We are so lucky (so far). We had a couple of make-shift overflow hospitals constructed and I don’t even think they had to be used. I haven’t lost anyone that I personally know to COVID, yet. My little family has stayed home andContinue reading “2020 is Epic”

Sadness

Today it feels like day 300 of quarantine.  It feels like a million years since we’ve been in school, yet it seems like yesterday.  Today I am filled with sadness, oddly accompanied by higher vibes than a sad day would normally bring me.  I don’t know why this is, perhaps I am accepting the changesContinue reading “Sadness”

A Better Way

Each daywas the sameUntil it wasnotOne dayChildren stoppedGoing to schoolPeople stoppedGatheringParties cancelledWeddings postponedAll overthe worldpeople stayed homeand worea maskwhen outStores closedSports games cancelledFactories suspendedOutside was silentNot dissimilar toA coldwinter’s spellOnly it wasn’tcoldAnd it wasn’twinterBirds chirpedFlowers blossomedTrees bloomedBabies frolickedFrogs sangThe people werestillAnd the planetmendedSmog disappearedAnd thepeople sangfrom theirliving roomTo an audiencein theirliving roomAnd the peoplehad paradesinContinue reading “A Better Way”

Day 400, Gratitude & Regrets

When I first stopped drinking, I had some big regrets for a long time. One of the biggest one was feeling like I failed my youngest. I was a normal drinker when my oldest was young, but was in the midst of alcoholism during the time I had my youngest (did not drink while pregnant,Continue reading “Day 400, Gratitude & Regrets”