Two Years, No Drinks

Two years ago was one of the most shameful days of my life. I won’t go into details, and they aren’t awful, as I was a ‘high bottom’ drunk. I’ve never had a DUI or anything like that. But I knew that I had to stop drinking once and for all. In these two years,Continue reading “Two Years, No Drinks”

Day #725 Don’t Look at Me

Spring has sprung, and the sunshine couldn’t feel any brighter. The birds are getting louder every day and the grass is slowly turning a lush green. Despite the arrival of spring, and my birthday, last week was tough. Low vibes and low energy, all week long. I didn’t workout as much as usual and myContinue reading “Day #725 Don’t Look at Me”

Are We Sure ‘Stuff’ Doesn’t Make Us Happy?

Day #717, Saturday March 13, 2021  Yesterday was a gorgeous March Friday in Michigan. In celebration of the great weather we’ve had all week, I ventured out to do some leisurely shopping at TJ Maxx. The only thing that I was specifically looking for was a St. Patty’s Day mask. Anything else that I foundContinue reading “Are We Sure ‘Stuff’ Doesn’t Make Us Happy?”

Back to School

February 28, 2021 Day #704 My boys, who have been attending school two days per week, are going back full time starting tomorrow. Five FULL days, which is amazing! They are kind of salty about it, and are complaining that they won’t be able to social distance. Anthony and Andrew are in their senior year.Continue reading “Back to School”

My Greatest Teacher

For the first time in 7 years, I felt joy when I saw the date, February 13th. It was my late mom’s birthday. She died suddenly in 2014. Her birthday, just like her deathday, can be a sad and overwhelming time. I didn’t allow myself to feel guilty, for feeling joy, on this day, althoughContinue reading “My Greatest Teacher”

Day 676 – What’s in Your Garden?

“We don’t see things the way they are. We see things the way We are.” -Talmud I used to see the world through a different set of eyes, because of the way I was. I’ve changed, and so has the landscape I look at everyday. But it’s not the landscape that has changed. I usedContinue reading “Day 676 – What’s in Your Garden?”

Always Watching

My oldest kiddo is a huge Tetris fan. When one of the most well known champs passed away recently, he was in shock. He told me about a headline he saw, saying Jonas Neubauer has died, which he thought was a joke. Then he told me about his wife’s Twitter statement, confirming the awful news.Continue reading “Always Watching”

Day 653

I think of the years I spent, writing on here, about day 1 after day 1 after day 1. At times I felt like a sham, “Hi 👋🏻, me again, I F***ed up yet again.” Feeling like a sober imposter.

The Man at the Bike Shop

The Man at the Bike Shop- Cocoa Beach, Florida I didn’t like him at first, he really irritated me. When I called, the lady who answered said they had a bag on the bike for our belongings, but when we asked at the shop, the man sternly said noooooo like we were off our rockers.Continue reading “The Man at the Bike Shop”

Survivor Guilt

I came across this post yesterday, and it made me cry. I guess it hits hard because as I’m working on my vision board, I’m feeling so incredibly pumped for year 44. And I think of the people in my life who are still drinking regularly, and think, why have I found recovery, and theyContinue reading “Survivor Guilt”