Day 653

I canโ€™t believe itโ€™s coming up on TWO years since Iโ€™ve had a sip of alcohol.

One of my favorite songs is โ€œHate Meโ€ by Blue October.

For YEARS, I listened to the line, โ€œ
I’m sober now for three whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me withโ€ and couldnโ€™t fathom 3 whole months. Itโ€™s still one of my favorites, and I canโ€™t wait to say, โ€œThree whole years.โ€

Iโ€™ve been seeing a ton of posts lately from people just beginning their sober journey.

I think of the years I spent, writing on here, about day 1 after day 1 after day 1. At times I felt like a sham, โ€œHi ๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿป, me again, I F***ed up yet again.โ€ Feeling like a sober imposter.

I didnโ€™t understand it, any of it. I felt great during sober streaks, so why did I keep falling into the moderation trap? It never seemed to work, and just left me thinking of alcohol 24/7.

I want to hug all those in the very beginning. I want to tell them that showing up is half (or more) of the battle. And if they f*** up, to not give up. Keep showing up, reaching out, utilizing meetings & connecting with others, and to keep building that sober toolkit. I want to promise them that theyโ€™ve been lied to and there is so much more to life than feeding the monster while keeping it at bay.

Iโ€™m hopeful that people are starting to wake up. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿปโ˜ฎ๏ธ๐Ÿฆ„

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I am a mom of boys, wife, furmom, gardner, walker, runner, teacher, reader, writer and cook. I am 42 years old and live in the beautiful state of Michigan. I love my job as an elementary special education teacher. The most remarkable quality of mine is that I'm a recovering alcoholic.

6 thoughts on “Day 653

  1. Woo Hoo!
    Happy 2 Years honey!

  2. Congratulations.
    I always stay around because I remember how desperate I felt in the beginning, and how sure I was life would be bleak and devoid of fun if I was sober. It turned out to be the opposite!

    I canโ€™t believe I have been sober 7 years. Time is sneaky!

    Take care!

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