This past week has been a whirlwind. I (barely) got all the work in for my class, I had to teach a full day professional development to a tough group of teachers, and deal with some family issues on top of that stuff.
My family issues are the same issues we have been going through since last summer. Codependency, addiction, unfit parenting, boundaries, etc, my life really feels like a Merry Go Round that keeps speeding up. On top of all that, I’m late. Like REALLY late. At 42 I have no idea if maybe I’m starting menopause or what. I’ve taken 3 tests in the past 10 days, 1 was invalid and 2 were negative.
In the midst of all this I feel incredibly grateful today. I acknowledge that feeling grateful despite the craziness is a blessing and I feel grateful for feeling grateful I was so grateful to not have woken up in a funk and pissy mood– which wouldn’t have been surprising! Last year when a similar situation happened it consumed my entire day and sometimes more. I would have negative repeating thoughts in my head and just go throughout my day feeling anger. Today I began listening to Codependent No More & think I am going to learn a lot.
White water rafting was exciting last weekend. I thought it was in Ohio, but it was actually in Pennsylvania– which just seems way more intense. I flew out of the raft at the 2nd rapid. There was nothing holding me onto the raft but my bad ankle. Somehow in the midst I banged up my knee. Lucky for my life, hubby is strong and pulled me back in pretty quickly. At one point hubby flew out, but I was too tired and weak to help him at all. My strong nephew pulled him back in like a rotten sack of potatoes. We almost bit it multiple times. We stopped for lunch at a rocky place. We had to make our way up slippery rocks that weren’t steady. At one point there was a snake slithering in the water right behind one of our adult leaders while she was making her way on the slippery rocks. But we all made it and now have a neat experience to tell about.
Just wanted to post briefly. Today is Day 140 and my goal is to keep this momentum going <3 <3 <3