It’s 10:20 on a Friday night and it’s been an EXHAUSTING week, so imma make this short.
Today is Day 30 🙂 🙂 🙂
I feel happy all over about this and I don’t have any desire to drink.
Tonight Hubby asked me if I wanted to go on the Boy Scout camping trip next weekend to Putnam Bay in Ohio.
B.S. (Before Sobriety) my answer would have been a quick “No.” Boy Scouts prohibits the use of alcohol. No way in hell would I subject myself to a weekend with no alcohol (B.S. alcohol was a necessity EVERY night– especially on the weekend).
All that time missed with my family, when I chose alcohol over them.
I won’t dwell, it’s the past and I let it go. I CAN change the future and make happier path. THIS feels right, and I feel optimistic.
So, instead of a hard, “No.” I say, “Where are we staying? What will we be doing? Where is that at?” After getting those answers, MY answer is easy, “YEAH I want to go with you guys!”
THIS is living. Participating in life instead of sitting on the sidelines getting wasted. Joyous.
If you haven’t started living again yet, I invite you to try it. You may feel slightly like a kid again.
I feel like a kid tonight who has OD’ed on sugar with too much coke and jelly beans.
Now I’m getting the urge to wake up early tomorrow morning to binge watch cartoons <3