Zen Life 

Yesterday I posted about suicide.  It’s impacted me, and just about everyone else on planet earth.  

I couldn’t fathom how anyone could do that to their family, particularly if you have kids.  All I knew is that I DIDN’T know.  Having another incident hit close to home, it’s been on my mind this week & has had me boggled as to WHY and HOW could someone do that?????

What am I doing?

When I continue to drink and pretend it’s not a problem, I’m slowly poisoning my body.  

SLOW SUICIDE

Me who can’t fathom choosing to leave their kids prematurely is choosing to shorten my life when I drink.

Mind blown & awakened, and determined more than ever.  

I’m loving the Buddhist practices & life views, and keeping my mind clear of substances is one of them.

So is compassion.  I’ve eaten mostly vegetarian for awhile now, with occasional fish, chicken or fast food burger.  The past couple weeks I have stayed away from animal flesh.  Totally unnecessary for me. Leveled with hubby over dinner the other day that eating animals always makes me feel bad, so I’m not going to do it.  This makes me feel compassionate and peaceful. 

Also, trying to reach inside myself when I’m feeling heavy emotions instead of reaching for external comforts.  It’s all such a learning process 🥰

Feeling good about all of this 💙. 

Goodnight ☺️🧘🏻‍♀️

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I am a mom of boys, wife, furmom, gardner, walker, runner, teacher, reader, writer and cook. I am 42 years old and live in the beautiful state of Michigan. I love my job as an elementary special education teacher. The most remarkable quality of mine is that I'm a recovering alcoholic.

2 thoughts on “Zen Life 

  1. I had a great aunt that committed suicide. She was older, but in a lot of pain from cancer.
    She didn’t want to move to a nursing home.
    I was very sad, but she saw no way out.

    Yes, you are slowly poisoning your body.
    I love the Buddhist teachings! They have helped me a lot!
    xo

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