Yesterday I posted about suicide. It’s impacted me, and just about everyone else on planet earth.
I couldn’t fathom how anyone could do that to their family, particularly if you have kids. All I knew is that I DIDN’T know. Having another incident hit close to home, it’s been on my mind this week & has had me boggled as to WHY and HOW could someone do that?????
What am I doing?
When I continue to drink and pretend it’s not a problem, I’m slowly poisoning my body.
Me who can’t fathom choosing to leave their kids prematurely is choosing to shorten my life when I drink.
Mind blown & awakened, and determined more than ever.
I’m loving the Buddhist practices & life views, and keeping my mind clear of substances is one of them.
So is compassion. I’ve eaten mostly vegetarian for awhile now, with occasional fish, chicken or fast food burger. The past couple weeks I have stayed away from animal flesh. Totally unnecessary for me. Leveled with hubby over dinner the other day that eating animals always makes me feel bad, so I’m not going to do it. This makes me feel compassionate and peaceful.
Also, trying to reach inside myself when I’m feeling heavy emotions instead of reaching for external comforts. It’s all such a learning process 🥰
Feeling good about all of this 💙.