Ahhhhhh… sweet sunny Sunday morning 🙂 We had a bit of a snowstorm yesterday– the first of the year. We got about 5 inches or so, so everything outside is covered, and white and peaceful. The sun is shining brightly and it is a very brisk 1 degree at the moment.
It’s been a pretty great week/weekend. We are leaving for Florida on Wednesday and I spent the first part of the week totally stressed out. My kids were sick and both stayed home on Monday and my oldest also stayed home on Tuesday. This was extremely stressful since the oldest has finals this week and I was already stressing about him missing 3 days for our trip. Plus, I had a lot of things to wrap up for work including 3 IEPs last week, assessments and report cards, and sub plans for 3 days. I didn’t even want to think about Florida– anytime anyone talked about it, it put me in a sour mood and I vowed never to plan a trip again unless it coincided with one of the breaks. By Friday I was feeling a ton better. My IEPs were done and filed, testing was all done, most of my report cards were done and my sub plans were complete. I only have one more day of work until we leave and if something unforeseen happens like a snow day– everything is all ready for the sub.
The only disappointment this weekend is that I missed an intro to Buddhism, Zen and Meditation class at the Dharma temple. Going there is on my bucket list and I thought that this class would be a good opportunity. It’s like 30 miles away though, and there was just way too much snow. It would have taken me around 2 hours to get there. So I skipped it. They offer the class every couple of months though, so I do want to go to the next one. In the meantime, I’d like to go to the Sunday service there. I didn’t go today, because my youngest had a sleepover last night and next Sunday I will be in Florida. Maybe the next Sunday.
The sleepover last night was fun. The boys played the board game LIFE, and Minecraft and just acted like lunatics. One of the boys had to leave around 8am for church and Sunday school. It was a little bit of a bummer to have to set my alarm, but I was so grateful for my sobriety and being able to get up bright eyed and bushy tailed. Hubs got up with me and we made waffles for the boys.
It made me think of a time years ago that I’m not so proud of. My oldest had a friend over and my best friend came down from up north for the night. We were drinking (she’s not a huge drinker–but this wasn’t long after my mom died and I was annihilated). My son’s friend felt sick around midnight and wanted to go home. I’m not sure if he called his mom or if I did, but I can’t imagine what I looked and sounded like when she picked him up. I’m not sure that he’s ever been back. I have always felt very guilty about this. He was a friend from the town we used to live in, so my son doesn’t see him at school or have much opportunity to talk to him–which might be partially why he hasn’t been back. But I’m guessing my behavior has something to do with it as well. I made a mental note to add his mother to my amends list.
Tomorrow is Martin Luther King day and we have the day off of school. I’m planning on getting a good workout in, getting my nails done and doing a few other preparations for our trip (we leave Wednesday morning). Tomorrow night my sisters and niece have tickets to dinner with a psychic. She is a popular local psychic. My only hope is that my mom shows up to dinner and this psychic can put our mind at ease. My hubby thinks that psychic are utterly ridiculous and a total sham. I don’t know how we can have such different thoughts on this topic. Other than this we pretty much share the same values and beliefs. Maybe if it was his mama in heaven he would feel different. I kind of think not though.
Today is going to be a nice day. I’m going to put on about 6 layers and take my dog on a walk. It probably will be pretty short because I don’t think any of the sidewalks are cleared and it’s probably going to take a lot more energy to trudge through the snow. That’s ok– I did a little more than 3 miles on Monday, Wednesday and Friday so I need less than a mile to complete my goal of 10 miles this week. I’ve been smashing this goal! I have 11 more days of January and already have almost 30 miles logged. My monthly goal is 40, I got this! Other than that you can find me hanging out with hubs and doing some good relaxing today 🙂 We had our fireplaces converted to gas in the fall and we are fully taking advantage of them this weekend! I think I’m actually going to miss winter, come spring. Cozy drinks and games by the fire have been so nice!
I’m feeling a little sad about dropping my dog off at the kennel before work on Tuesday morning. He goes there for daycare once a week and is always excited to go, but they have cameras that you can use to check in on your pet. Towards the end of the day he usually seems like he’s ready to go and often waits by the exit gate. He is not going to like spending 6 nights there 🙁 I’ve felt so bonded with him lately, with our frequent run/walks, which we both enjoy so much. I wish I had a friend who could stay at the house and watch him. Oh well, at least he’ll have lots of dog friends to play with.
Well… I think that’s it for my update. I have been pretty happy and optimistic this month. I think a big part of it is that self-care piece. I’m working out, meditating (for awhile I was doing it daily– I’ve let that slip a bit- but still try to do it at least every day or 2), and making a conscious effort to meet my goals. I’ve thought about buying wine a few times, and there just isn’t any benefit that I can see at that moment– so it really isn’t even an internal argument. It’s just like, “um, no thank you, no need or want for that!” So that has been a blessing. Staying sober in Florida should be ok. My sister said she’s not planning on drinking at all. Even if she deviates from that plan, the last sober vacation at her house I stayed sober even though she occasionally drank wine so I think I’ll be ok. I have too many miles to cover in Florida to be drunk or hungover 🙂
Happy Sunday Everybody <3