Yesterday ended up being a really nice day. I was productive at work and also afterwards. I had my visit with Dr. Tent (natural doctor) and then got in a 1 mile walk (foot was feeling better from Monday, but 1 mile was about all I could do). Afterwards, I meditated and wrote in my journal.
My visit with the good Dr. was intriguing. I was totally honest about my binge drinking. I didn’t want him to FIX my alcoholism, I just wanted to keep doing the regimen I’m doing whilst not drinking to see if I can finally get rid of this gout.
He always wants to cure my alcohol problem. First he gave me a food grade lithium that would quiet my mind. I haven’t noticed a difference, but often wonder if I would if I could stay sober for more than a couple weeks at a time. He thinks I have problems regulating my blood sugar and that its causing me to have anxiety, mood swings and cravings. No worries, he has a cure for that, including supplements and twice daily protein shakes to drink between meals. We will see. It would be great if I had less cravings (both alcohol and sugar) and better moods, but I will discontinue if I don’t see a difference. In the meantime, I’m confident that if it doesn’t help- I will still be able to stay sober doing the things I used to do (meetings, working on steps, podcasts, books, connecting with sober friends, exercising, meditating, journaling, self-care, etc). But HEY, I crave food all day long, so a part of me is hoping this will help! He is having me discontinue the first supplements he gave me for the parvo virus, which seems to be gone. I haven’t had any rheumatoid arthritis symptoms lately. I’m supposed to take Humira every 7-10 days, but haven’t taken it in over 2 weeks and don’t really intend on taking it again.
Today was another decent day, although my foot hurt pretty bad for most of the day (but just when I walked on it– felt ok when I was off it). I had a math class all day, so luckily it was a lot of sitting! My foot is feeling better tonight, but I’m not going to go for a walk, I don’t want to make it bad again. But, I am SO ready to get back to my daily walks!
We are going to get down Christmas decorations and I would like to meditate and journal before going to bed.
I am actually super tired. I couldn’t sleep last night until like 3 am, my mind was just running. I think it was from the increased dose of pred. I am hoping that I sleep better tonight.
Better get moving… bye day 3, hello day 4 <3
