My life is slowly spiraling out of control. I am at ease with it. I know that I have to make some big changes, I’m just not ready yet.
I quit the AIP diet in the third week. It was a TOUGH week. All my meals were tasting so gross, I was choking them down, I was SO tired and felt achy like having the flu and the pain along with a SH**load of swelling returned to my foot. I’m sure I was detoxing, and probably would be feeling so much better if I had stuck with it, but I’ve been drinking and eating garbage since the Wednesday of that 3rd week.
I’m now taking twice the amount of Humira and am on a low dose of pred everyday. I’m not happy about having to increase meds. I had an MRI on my feet and just found out that I have several microfractures and will have to see a foot doctor.
I don’t know how I’m going to get myself under control. I’ve thought about getting a life coach and/or finding a good functional doctor who can help guide me.
I was doing really good on the AIP diet and had a good mindset. I think if I mentally prepare better and take care of my needs better, I can do it. Plus next time I’ll know to expect a hard detox, even a few weeks in. That was the tough part because weeks 1 & 2 were easy and I felt really good. By the 3rd week the amount of effort it took to prepare meals was starting to wear on me and then BOOM when everyday I was feeling worse, I just threw in the towel. It didn’t help that the food was tasting gross. Better planning and knowing those expectations will help me next time.
Trying to be grateful but sometimes it is HARD. I am tired of thinking & feeling impaired. I know life will get better, I just don’t know when <3