Summer 2018 is coming to a close! Well, technically, we have about a month left of summer, but summer vacation is almost history. Today is Friday and I go back to work on Tuesday. I was at school last week for a meeting and most teachers are already hard at work setting up their classrooms. Most of the prep work that I need to do I can do from home, such as sending out IEPs at glance and trying to get my schedule set up– so I typically don’t go in until I’m required to.
The summer of ’18 was one of my favorites yet. Normally over the summer there are many times that I am bored, lonely and get depressed. Depressed– as in– barely having enough energy for a shower and being in a general funk for days. I’m happy to say that I didn’t go through that this summer. The reason, I’m pretty sure, is both external and internal.
I’ve made a ton of growth internally over the past several months and years. By internally, I guess I mean mentally and spiritually. I used to think that everyone was mad at me or didn’t like me– and I don’t know why I spent so much energy worrying about all of that. I’m not sure when or how this changed, probably due to the self help books that I read, but I no longer worry about other people. I’m sure this has helped me to not feel depressed and has helped me at times when I’m alone not feel so lonely.
Externally, the summer was bustling and busy, with little time to be feeling down. Cousins and the kids’ friends were over constantly, and a lot of time was spent with family and friends in both July and August.
There was that terrible situation towards the end of July when my mother and father-in-law had to take their 3 grandkids. Since then, I’ve gotten my dose of little ones! My own kids are older and it is nice to have smaller kids to hang out with. We’ve taken them to the park, the cider mill, swimming and other fun things. Also, my niece is going into kindergarten and is academically behind so I’ve been tutoring her for the past few weeks. After our tutoring session, we make time to do something fun like taking the dog for a walk or baking muffins. It’s been such a blessing to have that time with her.
It sounds like my sister in law might get custody back in a couple of months. I can’t say that I feel good about it or support it. I’m really anxious and scared about it, but that’s a story for another day. For now they are happy and safe and I have enjoyed building a relationship with them.
Here are some summer highlights:
- I learned how to use the weedwacker
- I got all my teeth problems fixed and have an appointment set up for an orthodontist consultation (I’ve been putting this all off for YEARS)
- I rode 154 miles on my bike during the month of June (my goal was 150)
- Paid off my smaller private student loan and faced my large federal loan after a decade of avoiding it
- Learned how to make falafel
- Read, read, read! Read some great books for fun and also some spiritual books– my favorite being The Four Agreements.
- Started meditating daily
- Started the summer with a strong streak of sobriety– recent relapse has taught me some good life lessons (story for another day)
- Started seriously working the steps
- Had some spiritual realizations which have provided me with internal calmness and clarity– I am ecstatic to be able to pick up on signs and messages
- Got iron infusions and am no longer anemic
- Planted a garden which has provided me with some delicious fresh peppers, tomatoes, zucchini and squash
Yes, this summer has been a great one! Today is going to be another fantastic day. I have a lunch date with a good friend from work and then I’m getting my hair done. I still need to get some new work clothes, get my nails done, go school clothes shopping with my youngest and schedule an appointment to get new contact lens– all in good time.