It is so incredibly easy to feel grateful on a day like today. It is Sunday morning, warm enough to have coffee on deck (1st time of the season) and the sounds of birds chirping and singing are everywhere.
It’s nice to be able to relax after a day like yesterday. I had to wake up early to make it to NCI (nonviolent crisis intervention) training by 8:00. I wasn’t excited to go in on a Saturday– but the alternative was August so I’m very happy to have it out of the way. The company was good and it was a small group, so we finished a few hours early– and had lots of good snacks/junk food to much on 😉 Since we finished so early and my boys were at a movie, I stopped at the grocery store on the way home for food for the week. I was SO glad to have that out of the way! I caught up on some cleaning and laundry when I got home–so it ended up being a totally productive Saturday.
I was exhausted Saturday night and in bed by 10:30. I slept like a baby and was ready to get up before 8:00. It was so nice to wake up with sounds of all the birds through the open window. I am SO happy that the weather is finally warm!!!
Today is going to be a great day. I’m planning on spending as much time as possible outside (it might storm later) and hoping for both a walk and a bike ride.
Today is day 44! I like to celebrate every sober day. I feel like it is a little bit of a tough time in the recovery world lately. On my Facebook groups it seems like many people relapsed this weekend (Cinco de Mayo?)– or were struggling and trying hard to NOT relapse.
Sadly, there was a couple RIP posts– these are always so sad and scary to read about. One was a fellow named Harry Cutter. After reading about his death (related to a recent relapse) I listened to his Podcast on Shair. Listening to him, it became obvious that this guy had his SH&% together! In his recovery he became vegan and a marathon runner (2 things I am passionate about– well not exactly the marathon part– but I do love running) and also wrote a recovery book. By all accounts, this guy was a success story. I ordered his book from Amazon and am looking forward to reading it. It is tragic yet real to read and listen to someone in recovery who was doing so well but ultimately died from this disease. It’s a stark reminder of how serious addiction is and how I need to be grateful for every single day of sobriety.
As far as my recovery goes, I haven’t been to a meeting since January. I listen to podcasts, connect with sober friends (online), read recovery books, work on my step work workbook and write. While I don’t do ALL of these things daily, I do at least one of them (sometimes several) once or twice a day. This is a very busy time at home and at work and some days I go to bed not knowing or thinking about what day I’m on and not having thought about drinking all day.
I am still putting steps 2 & 3 into practice when I notice myself struggling. I intend to start working on step 4 next. I know that this is a big step and is going to take time to work through. I don’t have a sponsor– but do have a number of tools to help me (downloaded worksheets, a 12 step women’s book and workbook, Russell Brand’s step book) work though it. I DO plan on finding a regular meeting to attend over the summer, getting to know people and finding a sponsor to help me go over these steps. This is just work I’m doing in the meantime to help me stay sober during these last busy months of work.
I am looking forward to a fabulous sober Sunday– God willing. It’s going to be a great week and the countdown ’till summer has officially begun!
Peace & Love <3
* If you want to listen to Harry Cutter (AKA BD Nino) or read his book, check out the web addresses below (sorry, you may need to copy and paste):