What a week!

The week back to work and school was a good one.   We had some small hiccups– like my oldest possibly having strep so I took Monday afternoon off to take him to the doctor.   He has type 1 Diabetes, so I’m a little more cautious and proactive with his health.  No strep 🙂

The youngest didn’t feel well on Tuesday so hubby stayed home with him.  The rest of the week was normal.

This is what I accomplished this week:

  • Woke up an hour early on Mon-Wed-Fri to walk/run
  • Took a 6, 8 then 7 mile bike ride on Wed-Thurs-Fri
  • Assessed all students on their IEP goals
  • Completed and submitted amendments for students who will get summer tutoring
  • Completed report cards
  • Completed March Medicaid paperwork
  • Did some online shopping, pretty much set for spring clothes

I didn’t do any housework during the week except keeping up on the basics, laundry, dishes (boys do this), etc.  Today will be a mixture of being lazy, cleaning up a bit and some self-care (hair, nails, doing something fun with my youngest).

The rain is really coming down and it is nasty out!  Much better than snow though, some parts of the country are getting like 2 feet today — yuck!!!

I completed the step 2 worksheet, which is all about the higher power (HP BABY!!!  GOSH, I TOTALLY COMPLETELY HATE HATE THAT SAYING I REALLY DON’T KNOW WHY!!!).  Doing the worksheet was productive, but for me there’s something missing.  I need to continue to work on step 2 a bit.  I love my higher power and the idea of Him– but I’m not 100% confident that I know how to access my HP when Betsy talks me into a drink.  I mean, I’m not planning on drinking.  I haven’t had any urges or cravings lately, but know that eventually they will come.  If Betsy starts to win the argument in my head (this has happened before), I don’t know how to use my HP to stop the thoughts in my head.  Maybe it’s just 100% faith and that’s what I’m not getting.  I don’t know…  maybe I’m overthinking.  I just know that after step 1, I was totally confident that I knew that step from front to back, every square inch and agreed with it completely no questions no nonsense and this one feels different.   I will post my step 2 work sometime this weekend and plan on adding to it as I get smarter about it.

Today is day 23 & I feel really great physically, mentally and spiritually.  I woke up this morning with body aches from working out a lot these past couple of days but those are good aches. I HAVE to make sure that I don’t forget the cost of a night of drinking — or a drink or two at dinner with a friend.  It will not be a one time thing and if I get back into that groove of nightly drinking, I may not make it out.

Anyways, I really should get off the couch and get moving.  Or at the very least turn off my computer, grab a blanket and put on a good movie.

Happy Saturday ❤

10 thoughts on “Lazy Rainy Saturday

  1. Wow, just reading what you’ve done in a week was exhausting! But you did it with enthusiasm. Good for you!

    I had trouble understanding how my HP could “save me” as well. What I figured out is that I was safe until I switched sides against my self by joining Betsy. If I teamed up with Betsy, then that whole free will thing kicked in, and I would have my way.

    Have a wonderful Saturday. 💕

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    1. You are so right about joining team Betsy. Once I side with her, I will go through any obstacle in order to get a drink, then 10 more. I need to keep the bad memorize fresh and stop romanticizing the booze. Thanks for the well wishes. I hope you are having a great weekend ❤

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      1. Glad you had a great weekend! 🙂 And yes, good ole’ Betsy!! I’m an educator and about died when Trump appointed the evil DeVos as SOE. She has done so much damage in MI and around the same time Iearned about the alcoholic beast inside. It was meant to be ❤ ❤

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  2. The HP thing was hard for me too…you are not alone! For me, it’s been working on my insides, my thoughts, and my feelings…knowing what I want for myself deep in my heart. Because when you have that firm in your mind, drinking just doesn’t fit in…even when the thought sounds good, back in your mind you remember the reality and that is that we just can’t drink! Happy weekend to you!

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    1. I’m glad to hear I’m not alone on the HP thing! I think I need to just have 100% trust and faith and yes when Betsy starts trying to talk me into a drink I need a firm, “NO!”. I HAVE to always remember the reality ❤
      P.S. Are you a runner? I've found running super therapeutic since getting sober– far more than any therapist I've talked to 🙂

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      1. You’re definitely not alone! I used to run…for about a year but it never really clicked for me, so I do yoga now, run a bit (but not long distances) and lots of walking. Yoga is my therapy now! It’s the only time my brain just shuts the rest of the world out and focuses on what my body is doing!!!

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