Happy sober Day #8!
I feel well-rested, optimistic, lighthearted, not stressed about all of the cleaning I need to catch up on, happy, motivated, smart, funny, excited, and have an overall feeling of bliss. While it’s easy to attribute my overall feelings of fabulousness to 8 days of sobriety, I’m sure that being on the beginning of spring break has nothing to do with it 😉
Being off Facebook this week has been good for me. Only a couple of times did I feel like I needed to reactivate and post. The first time was on my son’s 15th birthday. For the longest time I pride myself on birthday posts for my kids. I find the cutest pictures of them throughout their childhood, post about how blessed we are as parents and how you shouldn’t blink because they grow up so fast. I felt like a bad mom not acknowledging his birthday on Facebook, but why?
Which left me wondering WHY do I feel the need to tell this to all 300 of my facebook friends (most of which I haven’t seen in person for a number of years)?
I thought through the absurdity of my need to post and then moved on.
The second time I had the urge to reactivate was getting home late from work and seeing the destruction caused by my brother-in-law who was babysitting my youngest.
I suppose that with time, the urge to post stupid things will go away. At least I hope so! Other than those two times I’ve been happily disconnected. Sometimes life feels entirely like a rat race. While we can’t exit the rat race of life, quitting Facebook seems a little like dropping out of the rat race. I got off the high speed merry-go-round of life on display and it feels quite liberating!
Speaking of quitting…
I have a bad habit of starting things but not following through with them. Such as: meditation, regular elliptical usage to shape my legs, yoga, pilates, veganism, shakeology, probiotics, books (like over 30 on my shelf that I have started), AA meetings, womens meetings, juicing, stepwork, various workout programs, walking at lunch, sewing, piano lessons, pretty much you name it, I tried it a couple of times and then quit.
This bothers me so much that I talked to my therapist about it. She wasn’t much of a help– basically said that while my brain heals with prolonged sobriety– I would naturally become more focused. She really wasn’t very helpful with anything, so I quit seeing her too.
You can add sobriety to the long list of things that I have quit. Looking back on all of my posts it’s easy to see how many times I’ve thrown in the towel and gave up on my quest to not drink. It’s not surprising, I can’t stick to anything!
Focus, self. Stay focused.
You know what? WHO cares about all of the other stuff? WHO CARES? None of it really matters without sobriety.
So, for the good of the whole, I decided that for the time being, I will not worry about all of that other stuff. Diets, workouts, extra curricular activities, I will let myself quit anytime I want to. The only thing I need to worry about at this point in time is my sobriety.
That is a nonnegotiable & I will save 100% of my focus to stay on course.
Letting all of the other stuff go feels very freeing. Maybe liberating myself of these unnecessary burdens is the missing key to my success.
Peace and happiness <3