End of day 2. Not a totally great day but better than yesterday. Quite a bit of frustration this evening with my kiddos, their homework, the animals, getting stuff done for tomorrow, etc.
BUT.. the work day was much better to get through without a hangover.
I DID have the urge to drink tonight while helping my unfocused son with math. Huge urge. Almost texted hubby to stop for something on his way home. Didn’t help that I had a root canal 5 days ago and my tooth is still bugging me tonight.
I followed the drink and didn’t like where it lead me. I visualized getting hammered to the point of closing up and not being able to verbalize my thoughts. I thought of going to bed without remembering if I moved the elf on the shelf or if I fed the dog. I imagined waking up with a throbbing headache and going through the whole day feeling awful– like I did yesterday on my last Day 1.
I have to stay grateful and maintain the mindset that I’m on this journey for a reason. It’s not easy, but if it was then everyone would beat their addiction. It is hard, but I have already gotten so much out of this process. I am grateful for another Day 2 and hopeful that I will beat this <3