Woke up feeling incredibly grateful this morning– for sobriety and everything that I have learned this year.
Last year at this time I was in such a desperate place. Nothing was worse than drinking every single night and wanting to stop but not being able to. I didn’t know if I would have to go away to rehab, or maybe just die this way, lose my job, lose my family, everything was uncertain and my future was grim– especially not knowing what was going to become of me.
Even though I had several day 1’s this summer, I had more sober days than drinking days which was a vast improvement from where I was at last summer. I really haven’t felt that desperation of not being able to stop since February 2017 and thinking about those feelings, it seems like a lifetime ago.
I am so grateful for all that I’ve learned and this life that I’ve been given. Grateful for those years of struggles & know that they ultimately serve a purpose, I’m just not sure what that is yet.
I’m grateful for Day 18 today. Happy sober Friday everyone! I hope you all have a relaxing and rejuvenating long weekend