I Want a Divorce

You always know what to say and when to say it.  You speak to me at my most vulnerable moments, even when I don’t realize my weaknesses.  You whisper sweet nothings into my ear and tell me exactly what I want to hear.  You continue to sneak your conniving ways back into my life.

I’m done.   I’ve had enough of your lies and abuse.   Your empty promises mean nothing to me anymore.  I used to be afraid– and sad to leave you, but not anymore.  I’m tired of waking up feeling the shame and misery that you have inflicted upon me.

Yeah, I know, you’ve always been there.  For decades I’ve given you my nightly time and attention, while neglecting others and myself.   You demanded so much of my attention– I’ve had time for nothing else.  You take away my memory, the amnesia is a scary nightly occurrence.  You have taken over my life.

I want my life back.  I want to spend my nights with my family, doing meaningful activities.  I want to remember each night– each moment, for life is too precious to waste.  I want be fully present in every waking moment.  I will not regret leaving your daily abuse.

So.. alcohol, I’m breaking up with you.  It’s been real.. real miserable.  But now I can be happy <3

Published by Organic Revival

I am a mom of boys, wife, furmom, gardner, walker, runner, teacher, reader, writer and cook. I am 42 years old and live in the beautiful state of Michigan. I love my job as an elementary special education teacher. The most remarkable quality of mine is that I'm a recovering alcoholic.

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