I did it! I abstained last night! It wasn’t even that hard, I just was focused on other things all night. It felt really good.
While still a little gloomy when I got out of bed, this day, overall, has been a happier day. Even with a couple emotional issues I’m dealing with, I would say that my outlook is more positive/happier than it has been.
The dentist appointment this morning was annoying. The hygenist reemed out Anthony for not brushing good enough (this is an ongoing problem). We bought him an electric toothbrush and a water pik but for some reason he still can’t properly clean his teeth. Its so bad he might have to have his braces taken off for 6 months to keep his teeth clean (and then put back on probably costing more $$$). That plus an annoying situation last night has me just kind of fed up with him right now.
Uncle Ed is very sick and has been in the hospital for over a week. Susie and I are going to see him later. He is having surgery tomorrow morning, but only a 30-50% chance of his heart making it through. I will probably stay the night at Susie’s tonight.
I would love to say I’m not going to drink tonight, but with what’s going on plus being with my sister, I will probably drink to excess. I’m ok with it. I’m hopeful that I will be able to have more abs days in the future days. I just know that later is going to take a huge emotional toll.
I am happy that I was able to abstain last night and that I am having a better day today. I’ve been eating pretty clean also, which probably is helping too. I will write back, but I’m not sure when. I have a busy few days coming up with some family parties.