I foolishly picked up a box of wine and drank the first night in Tawas. Felt crappy the next day and wasn’t going to drink the second night– but it was there and I was bored.. so I did.
Drinking didn’t make things GREAT. On the second morning, we had to get up and get the place cleaned up and head home. One thing I want to mention is that I was SO short tempered with the kids. I knew it was the hangover. I was in a terrible mood. My mental and physical states were sad and painful.
We are going back up tonight. I’m not sure what or if I will drink this weekend. Monday is the 3rd anniversary of my mom’s death, it is going to be a hard day.
NOOOOOOOO! I reread the last two lines, and NO. I will NOT drink this weekend. I DON’T want to feel as bad as I did yesterday and Wednesday. I DON’T want to be short tempered with my family and unmotivated. More than likely it will just be non drinkers up there anyway, so I don’t even need to be tempted by others drinking!
Here is a quick list of strategies for when I feel tempted:
– Treat myself (food, special drink, apparel– whatever it takes!)
– Go outside– go for a walk or down to the beach and take in nature
– Read or listen to a podcast
– Make a list of reasons why I will regret it the next day
Ok team! We’ve got this! I will not sit back and “maybe” drink. I. WILL. NOT. DRINK. PERIOD!!
Now off to do some more writing and reflecting and then go to AA to hear a powerful speaker.
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