Life is good. I have been trying to eat as clean (per elimination diet protocol) as much as possible. I haven’t had coffee all week. I drank Monday and Tuesday (normal amounts). On Wednesday, I had an informal union meeting at an Irish Pub. I did have two glasses of Riesling (was very strong). That night, I had one beer, to ward off any withdrawals. Thursday night (last night) I had one beer. It’s been great going to bed sober and waking up feeling clear headed! Best of all, I haven’t had any withdrawal symptoms so far. I’ve read that insomnia, nausea, shakes, anxiety are all common. I know it’s only been a short time, but I do feel much better than I have lately.
One thing this week is that my feet (small joints particularly) are flaring. Each morning this week when I get up, I can barely walk. I haven’t had this bad of foot pain in quite awhile.
I realized last night that my feet flaring is a blessing. Each morning when I can barely walk, I am reminded of the path I must choose. I must try to eat anti inflammatory foods and avoid the ones that might be causing this flare. I must not drink because I have to rid my body of ALL toxins. This pain is a reminder of why I need to make better choices and exercise control and I am thankful to have it in my life right now.
That being said, I am pretty scared. The 2 year anniversary of my mom’s death is on Sunday. The 4th of July is on Monday. We are going up north tomorrow morning. I’ve never NOT drank up north with family– especially with the anniversary.
I am hoping to stay at 1 beer, or less. If I fall off, then I will have to shake myself clean and get back on.
#addiction #recovery #blessings #neverstoptrying